204/365: Being on the other side

Salam

30/7/2010: ....and there's jet flying

I got stress up as I don't know what to take after my core module and end up taking just whatever module left for me. I want to learn German as much I want to learn France and even for 2 semester full of French stuff I still not good at it.

Maybe I could learn two language at the same time, learning German and Dusun at the same time, Like learning Malay and English at elementary school =D

I felt ill since yesterday, damn it! 2 days away from opening semester and I got mild flu.

203/365: Avoiding Anaemia

Salam

29/7/2010: Then CH again

It was alternative work Hostel-CH-Hostel-CH-Hostel-CH, for Thursday, even tough our booth already close for registration but we still open for the sake of it. We sat there like Help Desk answering people question even it has nothing to do with hostel.

In CH, we were handling the food matter, and damn it was one of the job that make you take a knife and slice their throats.

There was also blood donation at the basement and I would like to donate some but something of that blood packet look tasty. However my choice not to donate really was worth it, because my period hit me.

202/365: the third day

Salam

28/7/2010: My work assignment at the Female Hostel

Its the third day of Fresher Week and bone crack my body like hell. I was never been this fucking tired in my whole life. Of course being one on the top of student hierarchy means that not always the people below listen to you or even coming to an idea to respect you.

I been through this situation quite a lot and to hell their whining about some bull, it just that I'm quite surprise that no matter how old you are, you never to old or to young to act like spoiled brat and asshole.

Truth is I don't want to waste my precious energy over this thing, whatever they do is wasting my time and space and I don't like to spend the next 2 hour thinking about it, just let it be and may God bless them. I do my job as I told and what I did are not making your life miserable, and for damn's sake I was the one suffer here? Did I complain about it? Fuck no!

I do feel I want to straggle them on the spot but of course that is totally inhumane and I would be prosecuted, yes I do have multiple personalities, ideology and concept, just be careful what mask will I put the next day when we meet, who know, I might be someone who completely different.

201/365: Incept my mind, try me

Salam, how about some mind game?

27/7/2010: first it was 745, then 800 then 1000...WTF?

Twitter trending still puts Inception as trending and I thought this might a good movie to watch without Twitter to promote it. I was lucky that bro want to take me out to watch Inception and I say I never regret watching it...maybe I could drag simple-minded Twilight fan to watch this movie.

Now I understand why people keep asking its concept and complication and why Leo said people in Japan understand Inception better than the western. It was understood that Anime and Manga have their own complicity from designing a character personalities and attire to the idea and philosophy they improvise in their series. I was among the Anime and Manga fan who tried to understand the complication that created by the artist.

I was glad I grew up with manga to understand the human mind and to understand Inception better, but I might download the movie again.

ANYWAY….I will try to understand how the concepts work.
Usually when we dream we tend to forget how we get to certain place, the hour move slowly in dream than the reality. If another entity entered our dream the entity could diverse the dream according to his/her accord. If the entity poses a threat it is a nature to project a blockade or anything to protect the dreamer.

Of course when we dream, sometimes we didn’t realize we are dreaming as everything we saw looks real. From what I remember, when we dream our mind play the memory from our subconscious mind, even if we can’t remember but the mind record the human 5 human sense.

What the Cobb’s dream team doing was to divert Robert memory and idea. As what we know his father in reality was disappointed in his son that he didn’t follow his footstep. Their job was to understand Robert feeling and memory and control his mind by going into his dream.

The further they go to his dream the more they could change his memory and idea. The advantage is that making Robert to open his mind to another entity that he thought a projection from his memory.

The first layer of a dream was to get Robert to believe his father love him but failed the second layer of a dream to make him believe he was in danger of his own dream and thus giving Cobb a permission to enter his mind. The third layer (in snowy military) where the memory of Robert kept inside and to never see it again, but this was again failed as Cobb was tangle with ‘guilty’. Where makes them go to the fourth layer to confront Cobb’s wife and save Robert as anyone who die in a dream will eventually go another dream and if they are not conscious they might think the dream is a reality and never return. After the world of fourth dream was destroyed, this allowed Cobb to enter the fifth dream with Saito who died in all layer and awaken in fifth layer.

In fourth layer where Robert’s father almost died and saying he was disappoint, they managed to convert the memory in making him believe that his father was disappoint in him to follow his footstep.

Which mean the deeper you go inside one mind the more chance to divert one’s mind, memory and idea. Of course to enter one dream the dreamer mustn’t know his/her imagination of architecture as this will make the dreamer to overwhelm the other entity.

But how sure we are that what we do right now is not a dream? What if our fantasy deep inside our mind finally fulfilled? Are we awake and think that it just a dream that we never make it into a reality? It easy enough though because if you still dreaming you can control it with the power of your mind and won’t be able to break you iPhone. So throw your iphone if its broken, well at least you know you are not dreaming.

As for me, I have short-term memory loss, my dream only just a wasted memory and stupid nightmare.

That’s it from me, damn I type too much…..

Sweet dreams

200/365: Tiring~

26/7/2010:My bloody hand

It was a tiring day for me, I'm getting old and my skin can easily burst blood.....damn

199/365: You called that hard?

Salam
You called this hard? I live with 2 jerk as elder brothers, NOW that hard!

25/7/2010: collection of Japanese Doll

Went back to Hostel as the Fresher Week will start around 8am and we report in the Hall 7am, I should knew that I never had insomnia!

As usual we have our meeting before hell break lose and to our disappointment, all dance activity are forbid in orientation. Reason: Syaaban...and we all knew what happen last year, if you know what I mean.

I was disappointed because it was last minute call and our member already work hard to remember the steps and my proposal was rejected very freaking bad! So our solution, check internet and agree to a game called "In My Grandma's Attics...." Although my first idea was to look for the most horror movie and tell them not to scream or look away for the entire movie, nothing but a silent horror night~but of course my teammate also pretty opposed to the idea.

198/365: what holiday?

Salam

24/7/2010: My Freddy, it will slice you into half and present your heart to me! =D

My UNI-ians friends complain how short our holiday and that it will come to the end soon.

Since my RESCO job start, I was occupied to various task and man it filled my calendar like hell! Anyway, I bound to this duty anyway and I had to do it.

My aunt want me to type in her report and I sucked at making this freaking table!

197/365:I can't have a day off can't I?

salam

23/7/2010: New Wardrobe

I thought I could have some long rest after helping those with orientation but of course junior will be coming next week and thing must do at the last minutes.

I was just informed that we are going to have another meeting this Saturday and I can't make it even they have to kill a junior to make me come. Not tonight!

ANYWAY....
I was reading BB article the other day regarding a workshop that promotes one to make a blog. Heh, now even 10 year old could have FB and blog for themselves. Apparently when internet was starting its spark in 2002 or maybe later, It was hard for me to get access through internet, I remember using Simpur Card and NetCard to access the internet. Due to that I refuse to create Friendster account until my parent bought internet moderm and all Hell break lose! I create plenty account in the internet, from Friendster to imeem, I was even create 2 blog at that time, yeah I was having time off after '0' level and I got free time to spend in front of computers.

However blog was mostly written about personal stuff around that era and I fancy the idea through it, I learn many things that they didn't taught in school like HTML code, CSS code, URL. I used to read HTML code and make out different result. Anyway mom didn't like the idea of blogging because mom said I might stick my head on it. Truth is when I entered form 6 I rarely update my blog and sometimes it could take longer than weeks. I mean who's going to read a 17 year old journal with bad tempered and bad mouth? Of course I have to obey my mother and update it once a week with the push and nag of my friends who also blogs at that time.

Now my brother also join this blogging society and it's an era of laptop and internet, there is one blog that was design and host by a 12 year old student in Singapore that teach people how to blog and how to make your Wordpress impressive to others. I feel kindda old when I read his journal, I mean wow, this kids today....... I just hope they won't be a target for pedophiles.

196/365: Thursday Mood

Salam

22/7/2010: Guess who 's behind that Kabuki mask?

The usual day, went back home as usual. Since my bro Aman have his day off till 3pm but only to standby, we have our brunch at Aminah Harith or it is the the other one, you know the one that serve nice Ambuyat at Batu Bersurat. Yes, supposed HM is visiting Tutong but I really need new wardrobe! Me, dad and my bro eat our ambuyat set and I set to look for the wardrobe

I finally get one and I find it quite classic and strong but at the same time a pretty price tag. So yeah mom will be pissed if she knew it.

195/365: Better than Meine Breitband

Salam

21/7/2010: the most senior in RESCO and the one that used to update RESCO blog

Today I go puasa as I got nothing to do and my internet just turned me down. I decided to update all the blog that provide with uploading pics using Hostel connection as mobile broadband are really disappointing sometimes.

Although I could use the nearest building to main office as my accommodation for the doing all RESCO work. However I thank God for let me stay far away as the building always has alarm problem that went on and off like crazy. Funny thing is the resident in the building I'm staying blame me for not switching off my alarm clock. Seriously I used to have that alarm clock that sound like Fire alarm I already gave it away as it gave me heart attack every morning.

194/365: It always end badly

20/7/2010: Its my first time walking in the middle of road in the morning

Went to CG workshop but there was only me and Riku-Senpai was there and the guys woke up late but she need to go home early and Jannah came after. So we wondered around UBD to reminisce how far from Chancellor Hall to Taman Selera and well we forget how far and big UBD is. Then at night Riku-Senpai cancelled the workshop as she had bad bad health and need to house arrest.

193/365: That first

Salam

19/7/2010: my brother want this picture

I got the another meeting at night for the update on Fresher Week and dance practice for hostel orientation. All three dance does challenging and I don't want to join either one, I like to dance but not in front Mein Junior and tomorrow I want to attend CG workshop and at the same time I need to go for a brief meeting of work that we need to do for Fresher Week. During that week we have two invitation of Majlis Ilmu and Nasyid performance at the Padang. So my calendar is not packed but haywire.

FML with my bloody broadband

192/365: Standby

Salam

18/7/2010: I don't usually like to show my comic to public but this is only one

Its Sunday and typically in Brunei, there always wedding ceremony. I rarely attend one nowadays since I need to look after my grandmother. Good thing though I could spend time to draw that fast-lazy draw comic. I read DC comic and online comic nowadays and try to fuse manga/anime style with western type. Well the technique does increase my production yield and I'm happy for it, so yeah I love drawing even I have to sacrifice 4 months without one during my previous semester for upcoming exam.

Anyway, I always ask to put my comic in web and try to publish it somewhere where people could read my comic. I fancy not the idea as what I do is only the matter of satisfaction, I draw because I feel like it and yes I do mind people criticism but that never let me down. I feel like drawing is like a drug, it's not meant for someone, I just feel like it to escape reality.

191/365: Ancient item

Salam

17/7/2010: they said one trash is one treasure

Mom decided to clean the store and it was one heck of stuff to set in and throw out. Mein Bruder found my camera original package along with battery spare, extra memory card and wires, I never knew all this because mom only give charger and its body, oh well there always something new in the old stuff.

190/365: How much?

Salam, yes the picture behind is my wallpaper

16/7/2010: FML

I always trust my Kaspersky Anti-Virus but then it already warned its expired 2 week before, that's mean my laptop will be a year old sooner. Man, I should say bon anniversaire to mein laptop. =D

I think dad will pay the installment of new one since CFK offer the Kaspersky; 3 user for $69++, than a user for $45++

189/365: Dirgahayu Kebawah Duli Tuan Patik

Salam



Daulat Kebawah Duli Tuan Patik. Dirgahayu Kebawah Duli Tuan Patik. Happy 64th Birthday to His Majesty The Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam.


Got nothing to do today, but mom insist to buy Brunei Times today to get the recycle bag, we bought 3 of them to get 3 bags. I like recycle bag, I use them to carry my hostel stuff around.

15/7/2010: another addition in my bag collection

188/365: Homecoming early

Salam

14/7/2010: Faisal celebrating his birthday on this date

Since His Majesty birtday is tomorrow, the chairman allowed us to get long weekend and return to hostel with tons of work. I hope my teammate will be present next week.

Anyway I checked my facebook and found out one of my RESCO member celebrate his birthday today, since I can't rely on the other member to update the RESCO blog, I put this, the only good enough picture that available in my HDD.

187/365: My first meal for the day

Salam, 你好

13/7/2010: cut off the heads, I forgot to take the Dim Sum

Li Yeon decided to take our breakfast somewhere near Brunei Times buildings, at first I ordered French Toast and then she offered me to taste Dim Sum. I tried it I reckon the steam better than the fried one.

Afternoon, we helped them with logbook, which mean any resident going out and in are to write down into logbook as record. the other RESCO helping to clean the RESCO forgotten shop while me, Li Yeon, Siew Chien, Ruth and Dey do the cutting, pasting, lining repeatedly....

Since I entered form 6 I'd always close to my Chinese friends than the same race. During my stay at Hostel for orientation preparation, Li Yeon, Siew Chien and Ruth always the companion that take me out for breakfast, lunch and dinner-depend on the day of course.

Of course being the only Malay in with my Chinese friends do make me out of place as I couldn't understand Chinese well, I need to learn this language someday.

186/365: Headache

Salam,aspirin please

12/7/2010: ? (picture taken during Japanese Culture week, got no picture for the day so yeah this is the last semester pic)

After my parent send me back to hostel I was total wreck, I got massive headache and thankfully our meeting start at night, I got plenty of rest....without a medicine.

The meeting was about the new polo shirt and this time they agree to change the colour into purple with yellow letters as the community want to have yellow coloured polo shirt at the first place. I can't take the pictures though because our chairwoman afraid someone might steal the design as it aren't produce yet.

185/365: My dad

11/7/2010: maybe a 7 years old picture

For my dad's birthday we ate Ambuyat =D

184/365: It just memories

Salam

10/7/2010: So it's over

I got this problem last year, when my inbox message inside my hand phone are overcapacity. It took time when new message coming in, I can't open another application when my message is still on.

It's hard for me to delete it and new message keep flooding in, there's even message when I got my first phone and God know what happen to it.

So Goodbye old message no longer, I can't keep all 2562 messages in my phone, thanks for the memories.


"Memories of the past remain in the past, but as you make new memories in the present and walk towards the future, the past is still simply, the best."
-Mark Aaron A. Corrales

183/365: My ebay stuff

Salam

9/7/2010: Sequence of my first ebay stuff that I ordered (using my brother account) in Brunei

Got my ebay stuff yesterday when dad fetch me up. Since I'm freaky bastard when it come to human connection and relationship, I had to comply to society protocol of giving gifts. Anyway, a close friend of mine was having her birthday early June and yes I completely forgot and I didn't greet nor give her present, fact that she did the opposite as I do, yes I'm suck. Anyway I didn't notice it was her birthday until Zarr remind me that she celebrate Poh Kuan's birthday, my calendar still upside down, still configure it though.

ANYWAY.........I make a solution, in order to save time, I just ordered it from ebay and send the link to my brother and let the internet do the magic. I'd promised to PK to get her pocket watch but I couldn't find nice one and end up with locket watch.

182/365: all I have to wait is approval

Salam, got lizard shit on my table

8/7/2010: This look tidy without the drawing material and my gadgets

The nursing student are taking their keys today and shit me, I sit there and watch because I didn't know what time dad will picking me up. In a way I'm helping looking after their laptop while the other member taking their lunch. I'm puasa at that time so I yeah.

Then dad picking me up after lunch and the canteen is still closed.

181/365: FML

Salam

7/7/2010: my company in the kitchen

Do you understand?

At night we present the proposal to the motherboard, well they look satisfied...I hope I mean my idea are sucks than my other team mates. Then the polo shirt team has already gave out their draft of the new polo shirt, as much I rather die than to wear pink polo shirt, hate to say it's fugly. I rather have jersey design than a woman's design polo. Then again who cares my opinion anyway, they stick to the original and we will wear it till for one semester. OR maybe I "accidentally" burn the polo shirt out of rage.....hm....

180/365: Headache

Salam

6/7/2010: Green tea perfume

Got this beads from Giant since my new room are filled with lizard's shit (near to the nightlamp). My team are the great, well most of them, we finished 80% of our task today and we all happy with the proposal. Good things our orientation job fall earlier than the other team hence we only lighten up their teen spirit for a bit before the big one hit them.

Dear new hostelite sucker, you suck and try to make me wrong during your orientation hell.

179/365: Finally back

Salam

5/7/2010: Foggy Monday morning

Had my meeting in the afternoon and thanks to Li Yeon for bringing me to KTM ta have my sungkai with TomYam :D

178/365: Going back...and no

Salam, it doesn't make sense

4/7/2010: I can't catch the name......

Around midday my aunt tag me to her friends wedding and horror hit me when we send gift to the bride in her room. I saw dozens of makeup, I was 'holy crap, they must be joking, oh wait they use it all?' How I wish I don't use all that even if its kill me.

Then went home around 3pm and I quickly packed all my stuff up to return back to hostel for the preparation for the upcoming events. I was tired enough but duty calls and we off after Asar.

4/7/2010:around the raining roads of Gadong

Condition at the hostel forbid me to stay overnight because it look like Silent Hill without the fog and distort creatures. Due to that mom said I should return tomorrow and we went to the Mall and that's when my ugly minutes comes and I end up with bad hair-literally. Caught in the rain, my coffee spills and the contour glass cannot be display because it's box was ruined by the coffee. Now I smelled like old coffee and stinks breadth.

177/365: Wait, what? Come again?

Salam

3/7/2010: Before-After

I helped my bro to cut his head....I mean, hair off. He said it cause him nuisance and drive him up to the wall. So like a jilted lover he ask me if I could clean it off his hair.

He doesn't want a complete bald like Zinedine Zidane, just shave those extra length of his and he good to go.I only managed to shave up to that I think it alright, but my dad said I should trim it more, so my dad shave off the extras and make a young recruit haircut.

176/365: Wo-hooo

Salam y'all

2/7/2010: with locks, to keep off from monkeys

10% of my revamped plan for my room is done. I been looking for a dark coloured book case, I want it comes with locks and if possible closed by sliding doors to keep the dust and someone from ruining my good and cash-eater books.

I bought this baby for $65 from Deli, its the only one available so I get it cheaper than the original price.

175/365: Killing in smile

1/7/2010: I'm seriously out of patient